I know that I always have
From before this version on my soul drew her first breath
I have loved you
It is as if you are a sold and tangible part of me
As if I am unable to feel whole without you
No one can help me
I'm drowning in your truth
In my truth this time
Because I can never let you know
It is a painful place to be
Comstantly feeling like I will never be yours
Thinking I can never
Say to you what is in my heart, my mind
My soul, my sex
I can never truly let you in
Not all the way
Because then I will lose you
And I can't lose you
It would be like tearing my skin off my body and
My pound of flesh given
I tearing in my brain, a split, schism
Seeing you love her, hearing the devotion you have
Knowing there is nothing I could ever do to change that
Knowing how happy I am for you
Because I am genuinely so
Because even though I want you all to myself
Wrapped up in me
There is no rock or hard place
There is no silver lining
This. Just. Is.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you..
