Time passes every day
sometimes it sprints by me so fast I can't even remember what I have forgotten
I'm slipping
If I had no place to belong would I still be moving forward
Even when I'm trying to suffocate my soul
I try to rip apart all that is good, to pummel my grace and force it to abandon me
I have a place to belong and my grace can not be ripped away from me no matter how hard I pull and yank and thrash and batter
It will not let go
I want to give into the soft and smokey darkness within me
I want to revel in all that I could be
To be able to taste all the things that are crawling just under my skin
I slice through my veins and try to force it out
try to evict the last shreds of my conscience
Please just let
me
go
I open up and let the blood flow
I do not call out for help
I want this, I want to sink
Please just let me go
But when I look down the blood spilled is not my own
He has taken all of it
The beating, the sadness, the depths of everything I yearn for
He has torn open his very heart to give me mine
He reaches out to me and gives me back that last breath with just enough time left for me to inhale the sun
...I won't be lonely even when I'm alone and calling your name and counting the days....
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